This week was a lot better than last. But still pretty rough. Remember when I was all excited that I lost a total of 9 inches? Well, after my appointment with my German-as-a-first-language personal trainer, that my friends, is not the case. I hesitate to post my numbers yet as I am embarrassed. I am embarrassed that I have let myself go. I am also embarrassed that after 8 weeks at the gym, I have only lost a total of 5 lbs.
If it weren't for Maui, I think this would be the week I give up completely. During my last workout with my trainer, I almost cried when she took my measurements, BMI and weight. She noticed that I was upset and then proceeded to explain (in fat-girl terms) what I am doing wrong.
1. Too much cardio, not enough weights.
2. Not counting and journaling my calories...and probably not staying within my range.
After researching her words of wisdom because I simply do not trust anyone...I found out that she is right. There is a GREAT article about this here.
So, I signed up for another 6 weeks. These are intense sessions as we move from one hour weights to 1/2 hour cardio and 1/2 hour weight training. I will also be adding two additional days of weight training to my regiment. And after that, I will sign up for my first Body Fit Challenge.
I am nervous, anxious, unmotivated and scared. There. I said it. I am overwhelmed with emotions and angry that my journey isn't happening as fast as I wanted it to. However, I am sticking to it and I will continue because once again, this blog makes me honest.
Oh, and thanks to a dear friend, Erika, who wrote about crying during a recent run—I don't feel alone. Thank you and I love you girl. Watching you drop the weight and seeing you transform has been a huge inspiration to me and I am so proud of you. I look forward to the day we can run a 5k together. It will be worth the weight.
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