Good News:
I have been looking forward to the Body Fit Challenge at my gym. It's a 12 week group training and nutrition plan. I have saved up the $229 fee and was looking forward to entering the challenge today and beginning the program next week. This grueling program includes daily meal plans--which seem to be my biggest obstacle--and two, one-hour sessions with my trainer, per week. Oh, and the 'biggest loser' gets $500. I was SO excited.
Bad News:
I got a tooth ache yesterday. More like a tooth smell. I have bad teeth, "hereditary deep grooves" to be exact. No one knew this growing up, and my mom took us every six months to have our teeth cleaned. Other than taking the liberty to pop a zit on my nose once, our dentist was pretty normal. (No, I am NOT joking, and it was a blackhead that looked big to him because he was wearing weird magnifying glasses...and it hurt). But, he was old-school, and I don't think that he knew that sealing our teeth as children would have prevented the ultimate thousands of dollars in dental bills that I will be enduring. Oh yeah, Thousands.
Of course, I knew my teeth were acting up. I have had two root canals and I have four crowns that were put on wrong--they are too big--over ten years ago. One crown started leaking this week--GROSS. So, I went to my dentist. He reminded me that it had been two years since I last saw him. Yeah, I am THAT patient. The one who only goes to the dentist when there is a problem. I loathe going to the dentist. Gee, I can't imagine why....
Long-story-short:
After the initial exam and x-rays, I have about $8,000 worth of work that needs to be done. Yeah--Four procedures at $2000 each = $8,000 -- and NO GRILLS to show off. PRO:
Thank Goodness for insurance and a dentist I trust! (Sure, I could probably find a cheaper dentist, but I trust this one. My kid loves him. Yes, 10-yrs old and she LOVES going to the mutha-effing DENTIST people--He is a good man.)
CON:
Dental insurance sucks--and mine only covers $1500 PER YEAR. So, I either take my chances and get one procedure per year for the next four years--and hope nothing major goes wrong. OR, I come up with $7500 this year. I think you see where I'm headed.
SO:
The first $500 is due next Thursday when I will sit in the big chair and wait for him to replace one crown and a filling and deep clean the surrounding gums. I have $229 and will have the rest by then, but seriously....I'm a little sad.
SETBACK:
Needless to say, I can't sign up for the Body Fit Challenge THIS TIME.
Staying Positive!
I was a little upset after my appointment. My German-as-a-first-language trainer was so excited to see me. We have been training for this and she had the paperwork all ready. I had to flake. And, I am not ok with being a flake. So, I was bummed, ran 2 miles in 30 minutes (holllla!) and then we discussed plan B.
I have learned SO much from my trainer, M. She understands my predicament and I am grateful for that. I have 12 weeks worth of strength training exercises and after *cough, cough* years of Weight Watchers, I KNOW how to eat right. This is just a test. It's my own challenge until I can afford to sign up for the next one. And I will. And seriously, if THIS is the only thing going "wrong" in my life right now, well then I am pretty lucky.
I didn't realize the clarity that comes with getting in shape. I actually have coping skills that I know I didn't have five years ago...This is my new life and I love it.
Although I was a little down and out today, my decision to move forward and stay focused was reinforced tonight as I picked up my daughter from the kids' gym. We walked through the doors into the main gym and she stopped and inhaled deeply. Then she looked at me and said "Mommy, I love the smell of the gym!" Me too kiddo, me too.
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